new is the new... new

moved us out of our house
packed up our memories in cardboard
yours too
had to
you left me to do it alone
while you were finding yourself
issuing promises
over phone lines and dial tones
of a happy return
packed up those hopes and dreams
packed a little love, just in case
moved out and left you there
left the memories of rainy movie days
pajamas, blankets, tea and sleepy smiles
left them
and moved

i sold the car
packed it with memories
that time we broke down on the side of the interstate
rode back to the house we shared
in the cab of the tow truck
me in the middle of you and the driver
a life of bad decisions
on him and his tongue
the dog on your lap
the weight of 3 years between us
packed it with memories
songs we listened to
packed it with memories
times we kissed
packed it with memories
and sold it

i got a new house
huge with enough space for your ego
instead I fill it with my independence and creativity
splash it on the walls where ever I want
without your judgment
i make new memories here
things you hated
no whine parties
just museums, theatre,
taboo nights and movie marathons
couches and chairs overflowing with friends
nothing about it reminds me of you

i bought a new car
bright and blue and everything you'd hate
cd player plays all the music
that would make you groan
as loud as i want
nothing about it reminds me of you

i systematically forgot why i had ever loved you
that it was I thought you had
that was special
i found a new love
and remembered what it was about him
that was special
and nothing about him
reminds me of you